My most memorable time in Malaaria was the hot afternoon when we were sitting in the small women’s resource center room on the floor with the entire nourish team, the ladies of the village (leaders of the village I should say), women that had come on foot from other villages to come speak with us, and a Seva Mandir worker, and in the middle of our interview questions our tape had run out. This was pretty crucial since most of our work involved replaying and replaying each of our footage pieces to translate the information we were gathering from the various interviews. Although Cayley and I know Hindi, Mewari (the language spoken in Malaaria) is extremely extremely difficult to understand. We were heavily dependent on getting that info translated in Hindi so that we could take it from there. We had three scheduled trips to Malaaria. This was our second one. Most of our work needed to be done before the third meeting, so getting all this on tape was pretty important. The first trip to Malaaria, memorable in many ways with the bumpy and incredibly dusty one hour ride to get there in an uncomfortably packed jeep (3people in the front, 4 behind them, and 2 in the back), was done to get the initial impression of the village. You know look at the lighting, look at the scenery, get some footage, and meet the people of course. During this second meeting, we were actually meeting the women, who would give us their accounts and their experiences which comprises the meat of our video. And before going through all the questions, we were out of tape.
The initial staff meeting with Seva Mandir, a panel of all senior members (experts I should say in their own fields) had made the message very clear. The Jati Panchyat (the topic of our documentary) used to be a male only platform, even though it was and still is a governing body that acts pretty much like a civil court whose ‘rulings’ affect women with a heavy hand. These rulings are not legal, but societal and they dictate how people are treated in the village. Many of the cases that are brought to the Jati Panchyat deal with women’s issues, and marital conflicts. Through decades of work, this traditional institution has had to make a lot of changes to have the women’s perspective be heard (this includes obvious leadership from women who despite a lot of hard hitting obstacles keep on fighting for their rights, but also men who have also had to reform their mentality). Had it not been for Seva Mandir stepping in to create dialogue and space for the women in this village, the progress of this institution and the fight for equality would have been slowed down significantly to say the least. This is not to say that things are perfect now in 2009, a lot more needs to be done to ensure equality. However the catalyst to move towards that progress had been started. Our task was to show that or show a glimpse of this change through our short documentary (which couldn’t exceed 10 minutes).
After the second meeting, the only meeting we had left was to sit in on an actual Jati Panchyat meeting where cases would be reviewed. Since that would happen at the tail end of our time there, it was important that the content of the video be gathered before that. So this hot afternoon, when the tape ran out, the tension was slightly palpable. There was a definite language barrier. And these women had done a lot merely to come and speak with us. And we didn’t really have a prepared back up plan.
So we did the best we could. We took out pen and paper, went through every woman that was there and told them that they can say whatever they would like to voice, and whatever they wanted to express in term of speaking about their experience in gathering together to collectively mobilize. Looking into the eyes of these women, who have no desire to be recognized in a formal fashion but are silent warriors in their own rights, going on in their ways of voicing what they feel is right and wrong, was eye opening. Most of the group members had no idea what was being said, because in that space and time nothing was being translated into English. I felt myself in this position which felt slightly absurd but unique and rewarding, to be able to understand both tongues and being able to connect these two groups via a language bridge. For me it was more important to have these women, who have never before seen us in their lives understand that more important than the documentary and filming was to connect with them, and to have them know that we are listening to what they have to say, and that we respect them for giving us their time and admire them wholeheartedly for their life long journeys.
After an hour of just scribing and listening, it was important to leave with having these two groups (the nourish group and these ladies) understand each other’s appreciation. Being in the spot I was in as the translator, I understood how much admiration each group had for the other, but I wasn’t sure if they knew this themselves. So all six of us took turns saying in English what being in that room for that afternoon meant for us. And then the women took turns saying in Mewari what that experience being in that room was like for them. As the Mewari was translated into Hindi, and as I was translating the Hindi into English, I found myself completely touched by how they were both saying the SAME things to each other without understanding it. The Americans in the room conveyed how inspired they were. And what did these women say? They also spoke to the Americans how inspired THEY were that these students were taking an interest in hearing their stories. The tongues were different, but the emotions were quite the same. It was truly unbelievable. I couldn’t stop thinking about how far away we were from each other in terms of language, culture, country but here we were for those several hours connecting with each other and feeling the same emotions.
We didn’t catch any of that on tape, and if I look back on it, I’m very happy that we didn’t. We weren’t distracted by any equipment, nor distracted by our to do list or our list of questions. Without battery power, or tape, or the video camera, we were able to truly be present with them. And that afternoon was definitely a day that really impacted a lot of us.